Creepiness with a bit of Self-Reflection.

Laugh out Loud.
Go ahead try it.
It's not so funny anymore is it.
No not funny at all.
Why is it not funny Tom?
Well Jerry, they aren't fighting back anymore.
The game is up.
That's a shame.
A bet isn't a bet if nothing is at stake.

That's a rough rendition of dialogue between two completely screwed up individuals. Unfortunately, it's rather sad that people do what they do with little to no remorse.

Funny Games.

It will make you think. Sad, that our society is one of ignoring their own responsibility and looking only for entertainment in all that we do. Enjoy, spending time with the people you care about. You don't need to be "doing anything".

Lying with Honesty

I've been starting to become bothered by people not being clear with me. It is rather frustrating at times to pour into people, not expecting anything in return. Though they do return with semi half-truth trash. Why can't honesty be the best policy? If you feel a certain way be honest and truthful. Don't lie and say you care when you truly don't. Don't lie about a background that doesn't exist. Everyone's life is at times considered boring. Accept the boringness and ascribe to making the simple moments count for everything.

You say that you want respect,
Well then you better get some for yourself.
Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone who is lost and insecure.
Lady in Blue Dress - Senses Fail

Desiring honesty at all cost and consequence,
Nate

Surface Tension

So many things have been going through my head lately. Ever since I've started substitute teaching, I have enjoyed every minute. Even the minutes that involve dealing with students that do not want to be dealt with. I still find the joy in that. Maybe it's because I'm "only a substitute" and not the full-time teacher.

Well I will get my chance, I'll be long-term subbing for the rest of the semester in less than two weeks. It's going to be interesting that's for sure. Though I will truly finally get to handle the class how I would handle them.

On the downside I've felt like I'm a pond. A pond just waiting for a rock to be tossed into. A pond that would start rippling, destroying the tension that was there. The tension that was holding everything together. The glue holding a book together. I sure hope I don't become unglued.

I always thought I was good at reading people. Unfortunately, I have NO clue where I stand. It's kind of exhilarating in a way, but also horrifying. I sit back and wonder about my life and where I've been. I've been truly blessed for the GREAT friendships that I still retain. In fact, I wouldn't trade them for the world. I also have been blessed to have such great blossoming friendships with people I have generally only known for just over half a year. Yes, you Sandals folks. I'm talking about you.

MikeyB, JD, KP, Bobby. I don't know where I'd be right now without the good times and support each of you have shown me.

Sandals friends. I always realized how great a church community could be, but being quickly and readily accepted into this community was icing on the cake. I could not have asked for anything more.

Where do I go from here? Not sure. I do know God is having his way in my life, so it will all work out for the greater good. I do know things will become much clearer over the next 7 months. Everything will be coming to a head.

Who do you carry that torch for, my young man? Or do you believe in anything? Or do you carry it around just to burn things down? -Jesse Lacey

Intrigue and Absurdity

I think I'm going to finally release my first story. It's not 100% completely finished. Though it is really close to so. However, I have also started building a concept. I think it's going to be very difficult to complete. I also think that it's going to be very, very interesting and also intriguing.

Think of it this way... It's not the last we'll see of a character in the story.

Re-writes aren't fun.

So I'm alive and well. I've been gradually working on the comments made from a few friends on the editing of my short story. It's wrapping up soon as I get a little more available time to focus on it. Probably this wednesday during my might class. Yeah, I don't pay attention in that class.

A Fire Inside

Done and Done.

It feels relatively nice to have a story completed. It is on its finishing touches with some Editors. Thanks to my two friends with a skill for the English language. I am excited to release it upon the masses. Though, I don't want to release garbage if you understand! I'm still deciding what I want to focus upon next. My classes both suck, and one is going to take up tons of my time. I'll just have to cope and get it done. I'll try to continue working on another project to be named.

Like the reference to a band that many know by another name (it's actually what it stands for by the way).

~To live fully one must give it all up.

Close only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades.

Story wrapping itself up. Should be completed for a 1st draft, unedited fairly soon. If all goes well and I don't get some block falling out of the sky and keeping me from finishing it. Should be done later today.

Won't pass it on to as many this time, without having someone give me some insight on just how bad it really is. That someone would be you Michael Baker (that English degree needs to have some polishing off right?). I'll call ya up when it's done, and send ya a copy. I'm really thinking later today/afternoon it will have some form of an ending.

~Truth hurts. Lying is so easy.

*EDIT* Story completed. Now's the time for some critical opinions, before I dust it off to the general public.