A Voice That Never Sings

When do I raise my voice and speak up? When will it matter? When will I know what the future holds? I hope I am able to piece together this rather soon. Within another month at the latest I would imagine. I have issues, sometimes I can hardly sleep at night, thinking about what can and could happen. Excitement, Resentment, Depression, Apathetic, these are a few of the emotions toying around in my head on any given day. However, my days are always good! Christ continues to dwell within me, everything will work out. I do not worry, I just am anxious. Maybe I should get this over and done with sooner rather than later. Yeah, thought so.

Additional tidbits: Short story 2 has been started and has a tentative finish date in place. Short story 3 and 4 are coming right around the corner, with a compilation reworking it all together. I'm thrilled and exhilarated at providing a piece of fiction that numerous people will be able to read and interpret for themselves. Whatever people get out of it, I will be happy. I have not pure intentions on what characters mean. Just some slight resemblances that I'm culled from here and there. Real life and the Fake Life. My passion burns on.

Timing is Everything

Timing comes and goes.
Does my will control the time?
People make the time.

As I strive to find the perfect time
I peer into the surreal sublime
Looking for a choice of right and wrong
Trying to remain headstrong.

I only wish decisions I make could be easier to decide. I'd prefer that in fact. People are complex, I'm drawn to that. I wish though we weren't as complex, for some people seem to make no sense. Maybe it will come together over time. I sure hope in the near future it all comes clear.

Trust that everything will come together for the greater good. Anxious to find this trust.

Creepiness with a bit of Self-Reflection.

Laugh out Loud.
Go ahead try it.
It's not so funny anymore is it.
No not funny at all.
Why is it not funny Tom?
Well Jerry, they aren't fighting back anymore.
The game is up.
That's a shame.
A bet isn't a bet if nothing is at stake.

That's a rough rendition of dialogue between two completely screwed up individuals. Unfortunately, it's rather sad that people do what they do with little to no remorse.

Funny Games.

It will make you think. Sad, that our society is one of ignoring their own responsibility and looking only for entertainment in all that we do. Enjoy, spending time with the people you care about. You don't need to be "doing anything".

Lying with Honesty

I've been starting to become bothered by people not being clear with me. It is rather frustrating at times to pour into people, not expecting anything in return. Though they do return with semi half-truth trash. Why can't honesty be the best policy? If you feel a certain way be honest and truthful. Don't lie and say you care when you truly don't. Don't lie about a background that doesn't exist. Everyone's life is at times considered boring. Accept the boringness and ascribe to making the simple moments count for everything.

You say that you want respect,
Well then you better get some for yourself.
Cause all that I see right now,
Is someone who is lost and insecure.
Lady in Blue Dress - Senses Fail

Desiring honesty at all cost and consequence,
Nate